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Album The Family Tree: The Bastards 2015
Album 2015
The Family Tree: The Bastards
A multi-generational family saga told through the medium of albums.
Family tree bastards
Album 2015
11 songs 43:17
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About the Album

The Family Tree series is made up of four interconnected records.

The idea spawned from reading a pair of classics – “East of Eden” by Steinbeck and “100 Years of Solitude” by Garcia Marquez. I read them around the same time and I adored them both. Watching people's actions and family traits play out over multiple generations was fascinating to me. I thought about them for months afterwards. And then an idea struck me. 

What would it be like to create a family saga in the medium of records?

This was back in 2008. The original plan was to create three short releases, maybe 7 or 8 songs a piece, that each represented a generation of a family. I assumed I’d spend about three years on the project. My estimation wasn’t even close. Once I started writing, it spiraled into an 8-year, 44-song behemoth.

I began by looking up genealogy charts, dating back about 200 years, and using the gaps in information to invent stories of who these people might have been. Since you’re often left with only birth and death records -- perhaps an obituary, if you are lucky -- there's plenty of space to speculate. I also wanted to incorporate magical realism, akin to what was woven throughout “100 Years of Solitude.” I’ve always loved small bits of fantasy or surrealism in stories.

I collected all my ideas into an assemblage of a family tree, borrowing from the visual diagrams I saw in those genealogy charts. Then the visuals gave me another idea. What if there were chord charts and harmonic choices related to the various branches? What if I treated components of music like genetics, letting them evolve a bit with each new family member? This concept was really exciting to me, and it gave the project a stronger sense of cohesion.

My last piece of organization was to show time passing via production choices. To implement this, I wrote a set of rules for each album. The Roots had five main songwriting tools: voices, piano, acoustic guitar, strings and small percussion. I wanted to focus on instruments that might have been in use around the time. The Branches introduced drums sets, electric guitars, and lots of metal sounds into the mix, hinting at the industrial revolution. And The Leaves allowed for synthesizers, drum machines and samples as a nod toward the modern age.

Between 2008 and 2010, I wrote over 60 songs for the project, sans lyrics. That felt overwhelming, so I whittled it down to about 40. I divided those tracks into the three main albums, and each record had a few songs that were written during the time of recording.

The Bastards is the exception. That record became a holding pen for the songs that were eventually removed from the main three albums. But not because I was unhappy with the results. I just couldn’t find a good spot for them in the track order and I like albums to have a certain flow.

The only major change that occurred over those eight years was during the recording of The Leaves. I’d been weaving personal stories into the series from the get-go, but never directly. I’ve historically written about my life in half-truths, or by removing all personal details so that the song is reduced to a general human experience. But events surrounding my family in 2015 were so overwhelming that I didn’t know what else to talk about and I started writing about where I personally come from. I had reserved most of the lyric writing until I was in the midst of recording each album, so the music on The Leaves had largely been sketched out, but the words had not.

So the saga came to a close in a very personal way, far smaller than intended. And instead of closure, I found myself just beginning to make sense of my own family tree. A road I only recently stopped wandering down so much, over a decade later.

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01.

Sisters

The second of Abigail's three children, Katelyn, left home when she was fourteen.

Or more accurately, she was sent away.

The day her abnormality was discovered by their neighbors, they woke to an angry, terrified mob on their front lawn. The locals were convinced she was some sort of demon and they demanded she be turned over. Her father convinced them to leave by reminding everyone that he was a good shot. It worked, but it was clear she could no longer stay in town.

Within a few days she was sent to live with her cousins, the Applegates.

The Applegate family owned a large house near the coast. The head of the family was also the head of the local church, and their lives completely revolved around their faith. Katelyn eventually relaxed into the structure of her new life, deeply appreciating the newfound sense of order. And through private late-night experiments, she eventually found a way to keep her reflection out of any nearby mirrors.

Katelyn eventually married and had two daughters of her own, but her paranoia about her strange bloodline had never stopped growing. By the time her youngest daughter was five, Katelyn was entirely housebound, and her prayers had taken on the texture of a compulsive, nervous tic.

This song is narrated by Katelyn's oldest daughter, Mary, chronicling the day their father finally took them to live with their Aunts.


(Click Here to read the short story that accompanies this song)

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Sisters

I tied your shoes while you sat and watched the rain
Hands folded across your lap 
And the dull look of peace across your face
Mom down the hall, bible pressed to her chest
She swore the devil hides in everything
And her room was the only safe haven left
She watched us grow through windowpanes

(Something in the middle, something in the middle
something in the middle, something's in the way)

You held my hand while the wind whistled nocturnes in the dark

(Something in the middle, something in the middle
Something in the middle, something's in the way)

We never knew what it meant to be holy

(Something in the middle, something in the middle
Something in the middle, something's in the way)

But we knew what we lost if we strayed from paths only they could see
But sink or swim is all they'd say

Your hand rode the wind out the window of the train
We slept in our seats with our knees curled beneath our dirty chins
Dad gripped the bags like they might fly away
And the scenery beyond the glass was liquid; we sat and soaked it in

I felt your breath along the way

I'd hold your hand when the sky fell apart
And you'd hold my hand if you felt me slipping back into the dark
Can't tell from the ground if the sky will fall
Can't tell from the sky if there's anybody down there at all

It's empty hands or empty plates

02.

Baptisms

The two boys, Jim and Bailey from "Summer Skeletons", are still friends as adults.

This time we are seeing through Bailey's eyes.

Bailey was never talkative. He was a poor student, but mostly because he could never keep his letters straight. They danced around on the page, unruly as mosquitos, and it took intense effort to read more than a few lines at a time. He also had trouble mixing up his syllables, so he spoke very carefully. Most people thought he was a little slow, mentally speaking, but he was very observant and had a strong memory. If he felt comfortable enough to share his thoughts, people were often startled by his philosophical outlook on life.

In this song, Bailey and Jim are fishing beside their favorite creek on a quiet Sunday morning. While watching the water, Bailey's mind turns toward the act of baptizing. He wonders aloud if perhaps we just like being held down and feeling clean.

Then he notices that Jim is in a troubled mood, and he does his best to comfort his friend.

To follow Bailey's story ... See "Rivers in the Dust" from the album The Leaves

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Baptisms

Back when I used to wander
I was always out looking for signs
But they were never there
So I'd pull 'em from the air

We all believed in something
But like you, I can't say why
It's just a whisper in our ear
Or a bottle for our fears

Hold me to the light, let me shine
Come hold me to the floor and say it's alright
Come hold me beneath the water's skin
Until I'm new again

I said what I was thinking
That you can't see what's good 'til it's gone
But there's something to be said
For a place to lay your head

You told me I was simple
And you envied me that peace of my mind
Then we listened to the creek
And it did much more for me

I'll hold you to the light, let you shine
I'll hold you against the floor and say it's alright
'Cause down beneath the water's skin
Where we will swim
There's diamonds on the surface then
And they'll come paint us both new again

These days, I barely wander
And I don't need no more of them signs
I'll just breathe in all that air
And be happy that it's there

03.

Servants and Kings

This song follows Richard Applegate, the oldest son of the Applegate family, after he enlisted.

America had just officially declared war on Germany, ending three years of US neutrality. 

Richard went against his parent's wishes by enlisting, but he had reasons he couldn't share. Richard's sexuality was crystal clear to him as soon as puberty hit. His teenage years were full of self-loathing and attempts to suppress his attraction to other men. He feigned interest in girls his age, but always begged religious if they returned his mock affections. This act worked well enough for five or six years, but when as was approaching twenty, his family grew insistent that he find a wife. He chose the war instead.

This song is about the first time he fell in love, with a fellow soldier named Joseph, whose ideas and demeanor were unlike anything Richard had ever been around.

To follow Richard's story ... See "The Ship in Port" from the album The Leaves

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Servants and Kings

Through rolling hills
And many miles of blood
We slept in the rainfall
And marched through the mud

And you were not like anyone I'd known
You spoke with impunity, had nothing to atone

In quiet evenings
You'd tell me what you thought
About servants and kings
And how everyone is bought
And that no one's hands are bloodier than God's
And that I won't be judged for doing as I ought

It's hard to say just when I fell in love
There was no epiphany
No light from above
But you'd become my candle in the dark
And all through that hell
You were a shield across my heart

When all was fire
And the world was out for blood
And the boys, still too young to drink,
Were drowning in the flood
I'd hear you laugh
And it was like coming up for air
And I'd laugh with you
Pretend I didn't care

Now [omitted] years have passed
Since the last time I saw you
When I kissed you on the mouth
And walked away
I knew it would be too much
I knew that it would scare you
But I couldn't find the proper words
For what I had to say

But I don't regret a thing

04.

All is Well (It's Only blood)

Genevieve, the daughter of William Northcote from "Family Portrait" and "Black Eyes", left her uncle's farm without notice.

She met a man named Conor the year before and, much like her grandparents, didn't care what it did to her reputation. She was in love and would not be dissuaded, no matter how strict her mother and uncle became.

When Conor found work on the coast -- he was an apt fisherman -- she ran away with him. Life was good for a brief window. He was doing well with his job, and she'd found a family who needed a housekeeper. But when rumors about them living together out of wedlock got around the small, religious town, he got into a knife fight defending her name.

This song is from Conor's point of view, as he's bleeding out on their bedroom floor.

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All is Well (It's Only blood)

All is well now
Pay no mind
All is well now
I'm just fine
I'm just fine

It's only blood
I have plenty left
It's only blood
I just need to rest

I said I'd fix this
That I'd set things straight
You begged me not to
But I couldn't stay
Couldn't wait

They cut me up
But I did them worse
And I'll be fine
I just need to rest

All is well now
All is well now
All is well now
All is well now

05.

All is Well (Goodbye, Goodbye)

Genevieve stands mutely in that empty, one-bedroom house, holding a small canister of gasoline.

When word traveled through town that Conor had died, and why, she was let go as a housekeeper. Not that she cared very much. The man she loved was gone, along with any reason to remain in that town.

In this song Genevieve walks through the home they shared, images of that terrible day flashing through her mind, leaving a trail of petrol behind her. Then she tosses a match through the open door and walks away for good.

To follow Genevieve's story ... See "West" from this same album

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05.

All is Well (Goodbye, Goodbye)

It's hard to keep the rainclouds out
When the windows never close
The house feels like a graveyard now
Like the floorboards hide the bones

And I have lost your face
It slips between my fingers now
And all the world is gray
As though you took the colors with you
When you went and passed away

I remember how the bedroom looked
When you left to see your lord
The sheets were a mess
And your clothes were all wrecked
In a pile by the door

And though my blood runs the same as it did before
Only difference is now I barely feel it anymore

So I collected all our plans and crimes
And set them all alight
The only thing that bound me to this place
You took with you when you died

So goodbye, goodbye

06.

Second Family Portrait

Narrated by Nathan, the youngest son of the Applegate family.

The same Applegate family that took in Katelyn, from the song "Sisters."

Nathan was a soft-spoken and very inward child. He often played alone. His parents attempts to have him join in with other children from the church always fell flat. He wasn't disobedient, but he was often described as "having his head in the clouds" by people in the area.

When he began hearing voices, his mother took it very poorly. She vented more and more about how she'd never understood him. Stories of her pregnancy with him ballooned and mutated. She started to suspect that the devil was in the mix, and that's why her morning sickness had been so much worse. The more she spoke this way, the more afraid of him she became. Eventually, she couldn't handle her anxiety and she convinced her husband to have him comitted to the asylum miles up the road.

The text of this song stems from diary entries Nathan wrote while in the mental institution.

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Second Family Portrait

My life started slow
In a town of idle minds
Our daydreams filled the space
Between our simple dramas

And my mom was strange
But she'd always liked to sew
And all my clothes smelled like
The room I was born in

My dad was calm
Never used two words when one would do
And my brother's hands were mischief-bent
With no will to stop them

And on the whole we lived simply
And day to day
Our fears were trivial
They always died with every sunset

When I was twelve my affliction came to light
And I was told that some things I heard
Were only there in my head

But I couldn't tell
Which were real and which were not
And the question loomed over all I did
Whether I could trust it

And I guess over time it became too much
And I was sent away at my mom's behest
Because she'd grown to fear me

Now I live up north
In the house for the broken heads
And my father comes and visits me
Whenever he can afford it

Sometimes at night
When the voices quiet down
I find I hope that I am missed
And that they haven't forgot me

07.

Letters Home (Aftermath)

Robert, from "Always Gold", receives the worst delivery of his life.

It's the body of his son, Christopher/Chase, in a makeshift coffin. The bullet wound proved fatal in the end.

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Letters Home (Aftermath)

Well, the men arrived as the sun began to set
And they pulled a wooden crate about six feet long
I could read the news in their downcast eyes
My boy had passed away

So I stepped inside
Because there was nothing left to say

08.

We're On Our Way

This is Stone's final song, as a much older man.

Severus's gambit, seen in the video for "Holy Branches", paid off. Stone finally stopped feeling so guilty once had some space from so many reminders. He never forgot his brother, of course, but Severus had created room for new relationships.

Stone slowly became more integrated into life around town. He had a good sense of humor, and now that he wasn't always so lost in thought, he was surprisingly conversational. He was handy and didn't mind helping others with issues around their homes. 

And on an unremarkable day, sometime in the fall of his fiftieth year, the connective tissue keeping Severus bound to his mind dissolved. Severus slipped away peacefully without Stone even realizing, just the way he'd hoped.

In time, Stone even took someone into his home. An orphan boy, who reminded him of his young self, was having trouble adapting to the rules of the orphanage. Stone said he could probably set him straight, and they were more than willing to let him try. They often butt heads, but Stone didn't mind. He was well acquainted with stubbornness.

This song is from Stone's point of view, talking to his ward on their porch, urging the boy to see that while things don't always work out how we'd like, it's better to just keep on moving. You never really know how things will wind up in the end.

(Quick note: the music video has nothing to do with the story of The Family Tree)

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We're On Our Way

Show your hands
If you need a new coat of paint
If your bones are now heavy things
Like anchors hidden somewhere 'neath your skin

Or if your head's just an empty box
If your heart has become spare parts
If your days are now just something you must bear

Oh, it seems you're a lot like me
You dug yourself into places
You never thought you would be
But don't you fret, and don't you mind
The only constant is change
And you never know what you'll find

Yeah, tomorrow I might wake up nice and clean
And I might believe the things I said I didn't mean
And this might turn and wind up just the way we'd dreamed
And I might become the things I swore I'd always be

Well, we're always on our way
We're on our way
Well, we're always on our way
We're on our way
Well, we're always on our way
We're on our way
Well, we're always on our way
We're on our way

09.

West

Genevieve, from the song "All is Well (Goodbye, Goodbye)" eventually married.

Thought she and Conor were never wed, she considered herself a widow. Her second choice in a mate, Henry, was more practical than passionate. But she loved him in her way. He wasn't as charming as Conor, and nowhere near as bright, but he worked hard and didn't complain.

Their fates changed when word of the gold rush in San Francisco reached their town. Henry was entirely taken in by the gold rush fever, and since she wasn't ready to start a family, he suggested they sell the home and head west. Within a couple months, he'd talked Genevieve into the idea and they set off.

They never made it to California. As the road's grew more fraught, Genevieve found herself wishing for peace and stability. After being raided in the mountains of Colorado and barely escaping with their lives, they decide to stay near Denver, letting their dreams of gold and fortune go.

To follow Genevieve's story ... See "Third Family Portrait" from the album The Leaves

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West

Familiar ground's a distant thing
As we travel vague and crooked roads
The sun's a scab on vacant skies
And we always hope we're still alone

There's too much time for idle minds
Imagination's armed with hooks and knives
We count our fears to pass the time
Tired or not, don't close your eyes

A picket fence
A painted house
A quiet life
One where days are calm
And night's are spent in kind
One where our hopes and dreams
Are attainable things

One where time can't reach

Rain curls our bodies
Our hands white and knotting

We knife the plains now
Cut mountain chains down
Sleep when you can
You can't know how the night's fall
Things will be better there
Things will be good there
Don't stop to think
Just chase the dream we're chasing
I smell the fireplace
Warm light, a warm face
A quiet life
A life, a life, a life, a life
A life along the breeze

The dogs came at midnight
Guns drawn and eyes bright
I heard them laughin'
Black voices scratchin'
Pack quick and move light
Our lives ain't worth belongings
Dog's tear the canvas
Flies on the carcass
But it buys the time we need

The dogs came at midnight
The dogs came at midnight
The dogs came at midnight
And I always hear them laughing

10.

Small Hands

The original plan for this song was as a follow-up to "Sisters."

I wanted to revisit their relationship again, later in life, with Elsa now watching over her older sister.

But after a major disruption within my own family, I wound up writing this as a personal song to some of my loved ones. 

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Small Hands

Well the world might cut you down again
But you know the way back home
And your best might not be good enough
But just know you're not alone

And if you slip and lose your way again
I know that you will be alright
You still gotta try

If you need, come build your home in me
And you know I won't complain
I can't fix what was done to you
But I'll shield you from the rain

And if the walls they built become too high
Then step up on my back and climb
'Cause I never mind
no matter the day or time
I never mind

And all the anchors that they hid inside your chest
We will unravel all the chains
And toss the remnants all down the drain
And though my hands are much too small to hold you up
I will be there to pick up the pieces
And keep you housed while you mend them up

And if you wind up in the dark again
Just turn and call my name
And if the fire in your chest goes out
Well, I'll hold you all the same
And if you need to take this out on me
Well, you know I won't complain

11.

Nightclothes

I have a few songs I've written that I will never play again. This is one of them.

In the original guidebook, this is what I wrote: 

"Abel, from "Reminders" and "From the Mouth of an Injured Head", had two children. His son, Avery, narrates this song. It revolves around memories of him and his sister, and all the things they did as children before she passed away unexpectedly."

This was a thin case of hiding my life in fiction. The truth is, I wrote this song for my sister. She died at age twenty-five. I was twenty-three. We were very close, and her death changed something fundamental in me. This song was my best attempt to honor her memory.

The words on this song are deeply personal, and I've never had a more difficult time singing something. I felt a need to get them out, and I'm glad I did, but they aren't something I can revisit. I didn't want to include this information in the guidebook for fear it would become a talking point when meeting people on tour.

It's still not an easy topic for me, but it's not quite the hot stove it once was. So there's the truth.

In memory of Hannah Cooper. I still think of you often.

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Nightclothes

We crept from the room
Moonlight spilled down the hall
And I tiptoed with you
Then we climbed out the window

And there in the yard
Our nightclothes blowing in the breeze
And you looked up at the sky
And said the moon would be ours

And all this time I hear those words
Like bombs in the distance
And oh, my my
I can still smell the rain in the air
But time's gone by
And I'm not the kid I was on that evening
And somewhere inside
I hope you still see me just the way I was
Before I walked away

Mud on your dress
Blood stains on the knees of my pants
And we went in search of the moon
'Cause you said that you knew
Where it slept in the day

So we gathered up our tools
A slingshot in case it ran for the sky
And a blanket from your room
The one with no holes
So we could drag it all the way back home

And you said when we caught it that
We would cut it up in two
And we'd wear the halves on necklaces
And then I could control the tides with you

And I still hear the way that you laughed
When you found I believed you
And I could still feel you pull on my arm
When I was too afraid to go
And all this time, I hear your words
Like bombs in the distance
And my, oh, my
I can still smell the dirt on our hands

'Cause in my head
You're still alive
You're still alive
And I know that it's a lie
But it's one I like
It's one I like

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