
About The Album
The album is called “Mixtape” because I wanted play around with genre instead of honoring it.
Unlike an album, where it’s often about larger themes and cohesive sound pallets, mixtapes are all about variety. Or at least they were for me and my friends. So when putting this release together, I was more concerned with making sure none of the songs sounded too similar. It turned out to be a really fun change of pace. After so many years of stressing over cohesiveness, it was refreshing thinking of ways to destroy it.
More than just that, I have always worked with lots of different styles. Hence all my side projects over the years. I just stopped releasing my less acoustic work because I didn’t know where to put it. I no longer think that type of organization matters very much.
One positive change brought about by streaming, in my eyes, is that people are more willing to explore their musical tastes. Since it all costs the same, and you aren't purchasing an album before you know how you feel about it, there's little harm in trying something new. I personally don’t hear a lot of “I only listen to [insert genre]” kind of talk anymore, and I think the removal of risk is a part of that. As someone who never cared for all the genre arguments in the first place, I consider this a nice update.
So I’m using this Mixtape series as a container for all the misfits that show up as a result of explorations in the studio. Mixtape #2 is currently underway.
Lovesong
This track spawned from testing out a synthesizer. I didn’t set out to make a song with it.
I just wanted to document some of the sounds to listen back to later. But it was developing a fun sense of movement as I layered a bunch of different arpeggiators on top of each other. So I built some drum loops, made a rough song structure, and then I forgot about it for about three years.
I found the recording again earlier this year (2024). I liked the way it sounded, so I added some guitars and lyrics to it. I was feeling sentimental that day, so I thought I would try my hand at a love song. I almost never write those, at least not directly, but on that particular afternoon it felt right. I had also just finished reading the “Three Body Problem” series by Liu Cixin the week before, which, if you’ve ever read them, really makes you think about life with this enormous sense of scale. It definitely affected the lyrics I came up with.
So this track was just a result of a chaos, happenstance and trusting my instincts. Which feels right in line with the theme of love.
Lovesong
ten thousand years is just a drop in time
and our time on earth is just a flash of light
in an endless, empty void
inside that flash a tiny universe
a million thoughts and dreams
that scream in hopes of truly being heard
inside that scream there hides a single word
we can't define just what it means
but we still say it anyway
if you could hear me then I'd say to you
"I think I love you"
and once I say it all the rest just melts away
and the world's a ship among a sea of stars
ten thousand stars for every grain of sand
that's found upon the earth
and our little eyes just see the tip of this
and that tip is more than we can count
our minds were built for smaller things
our time on earth is just a stepping stone
along a path we didn't build
into a place we'll never know
if I could share this piece of path with you
then that's enough for me
and the rest can do whatever it will do
you are, to me, a private universe
it's taken thirty-six trillion cells
to make the shape that I call you
and when those cells go back into the earth
they'll spread themselves
into the wind, the rain, the skies, the trees, the dirt
so if you go before me I will know
some part of you could be in anything
I'd find along the way
and if I'm the one who goes before you
then I, too, could be in anything
so just remember what I'd say
Safe and Sound
This song, if you know my earlier projects, was on an Electric President album called “The Violent Blue.”
It originally started as a Radical Face song. But we needed something to finish out that album, and it wasn’t quite fitting in with The Roots, which I was also working on at the time. So I got together with Alex (the other member of Electric President), we recorded it quickly, and the record was done soon after.
But if I’m being perfectly honest, I was never entirely happy with that recording. Something never felt right about the mix, and it’s not the best key for my voice. I used to say I like the song more than the recording. But like any piece of art, you eventually just have to accept its flaws and move on. Attempting to make something perfect is a great way to never finish it.
So how did this new version come about?
I bought a new mic earlier in the year (2024). My way of testing a microphone is to record an entire song with it, using it on every source, as it’s the fastest way to see how it behaves and whether I want to keep it. But I typically do this with a song I’ve already written or a cover. That way there aren’t many artistic decisions to make and I can focus on the engineering and mixing. I just happened to choose “Safe and Sound” for my test, and I was happy with how it came out.
I understand that people might still prefer the original, and that’s totally fine. But for me, this one is far closer to how I heard the song in my head, once upon a time.
Safe and Sound
you took your hits
wear the bruises on the soles of your feet
well, who's to say if they're deserved?
but you're turning reckless now
I heard you saying through your teeth
that you'll take them down first
but I saw you flinch
when the doctors got their claws in you
I saw your smile start to crack
It's not so funny when you're sunk
and there ain't nothing you can do
and your options are all dead ends
when there's no way out
I'll let you build your home in me
'til the clocks run down
when your luck's run out
call me and I will come and fix you
get your feet on the ground
when there's no way out
call me and I will come and bury you
all safe and sound
and all this time
you've been drifting out with the tide, my friend
but you can have what's mine
if it helps you stay afloat
if I close my eyes
I can't watch you drown anymore, my friend
but I'll tell you lies
if it helps you sleep at night
and the more we fight
the more we don't get right, my friend
yeah, the more we fight
the more we don't get right
I heard they broke you
that you gave in
that you dropped
and the fight had left you
but don't you worry
makes no difference
from the start
your options were all dead ends
when there's no way out
I'll let you build your home in me
'til the clocks run down
when your luck's run out
call me and I will come and fix you
get your feet on the ground
when there's no way out
call me and I will come and bury you
all safe and sound
See It Through
I have a big soft spot for early new wave pop songs.
The Cars, Gary Numan, Modern English, Echo and the Bunnymen, The B-52s … it’s a long list. It’s often my favorite driving music. That era struck such a great balance between fun and moody. Melodrama with a beat. While this isn’t a style I play with regularly (or that I’m very confident in) it happens from time to time. So I decided to put this one out. I have a few more floating around that I may eventually put out, too.
Lyrically, this one is pretty straightforward. It’s about sitting with someone through a bad patch of life, and accepting that it's okay to need that very same help sometimes, too.
See It Through
lost in the dark, nowhere to go
wishing you were somebody else
someone who's never needed a thing
someone who's never afraid
I tried to call, you didn't pick up
I pretended to believe when you said
that you're doing fine now
there's no need to check
that you'll take care of the rest
I know you well enough to know you've had a rough go
I can hear it in your voice when you say "I don't know"
so I'm leaving you this message for the next time it rains
so come what may
we'll see it through
we'll see it through, I swear
what bends doesn't break
we'll see it through
we'll it through
I promise you
take my hand
we'll see this through
we'll see this through
I've got you
so come what will
we'll see it through
we'll see it through
I promise
now I'm the one lost in the dark
wishing I was somebody else
someone who never feels a thing
someone who never gives in
you sat beside me, hand in my hand
and you told me that you knew what I meant
but everyone loses themselves sometimes
and I will find it again
you know me well enough to know I've had a rough go
you sit and listen while I put on my whole tough show
then you tell me it's okay to need some help now and then
so come what may
we'll see it through
we'll see it through, I swear
what bends doesn't break
we'll see it through
we'll it through
I promise you
take my hand
we'll see this through
We'll see this through
I've got you
so come what will
we'll see it through
we'll see it through
I promise
Endless Summoner
This was originally part of my (now defunct) side project “Human Mother.” But I made it as a personal snippet of nostalgia.
I grew up in Jacksonville Beach, Florida – a crusty little beach town just south of the Georgia line. I grew up around surfing, and while I mostly skated, I developed a real fondness for the ocean that I still carry with me.
But this particular song is a giant nod to my favorite surf film, Endless Summer. We had the VHS when I was a kid, and I watched it a lot. I just liked the feel of it, and still do. Seeing it years later, I realized how much the mood of that film stems from its soundtrack. So I wanted to write an homage to that movie and its score by The Sandals.
Additional note: the vocal samples in this came from a really funny Uber ride when I lived in LA. The driver didn’t speak a lot of English, and I don’t speak a lot of Spanish, but somehow the miscommunications just made us both laugh a lot. I asked him if I could record our ride, and just put the phone up on the dash. He really liked the word “beautiful.” I thought that was a nice word to pick.
Shipwrecks
I wrote this song on a blue day.
I was missing someone I haven’t seen in a long time, and may never see again. For reason unknown to me, those feelings lead me to sad songs with major chords. Always has. If I had to guess, it’s because it’s a confusing set of emotions. The kind where warmth and loss are so entangled that they’ve made something new, where you smile and mourn at the same time. Happysad. Lostfound.
I wrote and recorded the entire song in one day. Mixed it the next. Haven’t touched it since. Not sure I’ll play this one out very much, whenever I do some shows again. But we’ll see. Sometimes it scratches a strange sort of itch.
Shipwrecks
so I sit here at the table
writing all the things that I'm too scared to say
by the time you find my letter
I imagine I'll be well upon my way
how was I supposed to save you
when I'd never found a way to save myself?
we found each other at the bottom of the sea
but another sunken ship just ain't much help
I watch the highway out the window
and I miss the way you'd laugh at my dumb jokes
and while I don't know where you are now
I'd like to think that you've got life up on the ropes
you don't need to forgive me
I know the bed I've made
I just hope you find yourself
a better heart to break
how were you supposed to save me
when you'd never found a way to save yourself?
we found each other at the bottom of the sea
but just learned another anchor ain't much help
how was I supposed to save you
when I'd never found a way to save myself?
we found each other at the bottom of the sea
but another sunken ship just ain't much help
Kids Are Mean
Another one from my “Human Mother” project, this song was inspired by 90s hip-hop producers.
Albums like “Entroducing” from DJ Shadow were a huge influence on me, especially when it comes to percussion. I’ve always loved the chopped drums from that era, and the sound quality they had. Heavy and crinkly and mixed really loud.
All the speaking in this track came from interviews found on freesound.org, but they’re heavily edited. I cut all the words out and moved them around to make new sentences. There’s something really funny about that to me, stitching together a bunch of nonsense. This track also continues my ongoing obsession with wind chimes.
I’m A Good Listener
I wrote this song after being invited out to a number of social events in Los Angeles.
I kept noticing that everyone was saying “amazing” a lot, but it didn’t seem like anyone was listening very much. The people were all nice enough on a surface level, but it didn’t suit me. It still amazes me that standing around and doing very little can be so tiring when it’s the wrong fit. I couldn’t escape the feeling that I was melting.
So I wrote this song in response. I detuned my guitars until the strings were just flopping around and almost unplayable, and sang the words with food in my mouth, then pitch shifted everything afterwards. I’ve always liked creating things solely to make myself laugh. This is just one of those.
I’m A Good Listener
I heard all the stuff that you said, you said that:
Blah, blah, blah, blah
I heard all the words that you said, you said you're
Blah, blah, blah, blah
I heard everything that you said, and you said that:
Blah, blah, blah, blah
I heard all the stuff that you said, and you said that:
Blah, blah, blah, blah
You're a really interesting person
You're a really interesting person
I watch you as you talk
Your mouth is moving up and down
It's like you're chewing with no food
It's like you're chewing with no food
It's like you're...
We hear every joke that you say, so we go:
Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha
We hear all the jokes that you say, so we go:
Ha, ha, ha, ha
We hear everything that you say, and we say:
Ha, ha, ha, ha
We hear all the jokes that you do
You're a super interesting person (wow)
You're a super interesting person (wow)
I watch you as you talk
Your mouth is moving up and down
It's like you're chewing with no food
It's like you're chewing with no food
It's like you're...
Hey, you wanna hear me play, like, an acoustic guitar solo?
I heard every word that you said, you said that:
Blah, blah, blah, blah
I heard all the stuff that you said, you said that:
Blah, blah, blah, blah
I heard every word that you said, you said you're
Blah, blah, blah, blah
I heard all the things that you said, and I said:
Blah, blah, blah, blah
Gymnopodie No. 1
This is a cover of a very famous piano piece from Erik Satie. There are so many versions that respect its calm nature, so I thought it would be fun to try something in the opposite direction.
I reached out to Griffin Kisner, who plays drums for me on tour and on the “A Light In The Woods” series, and on tour. I asked if he could record a single drum take that repeats as little as possible. This was in the middle of the pandemic, so we were just working remotely and sharing via email. I was blown away with the performance he sent back to me. It’s the star of the track, for sure.
Teenage Feelings
This little shoegaze number came about because of a script.
A friend of mine was working on a pilot for a show, and while I won’t share any of his ideas here (they’re very cool), it takes place in the early 90s indie rock scene and the main character is a singer in a band. My friend asked if I wanted to write something that she, and the band, might play. That period of music is a huge reason why I’m a musician, so I was very down to give it a try.
I wrote and recorded the song over two days, writing the lyrics from the point of view of the main character. I had a blast doing it, but it was yet another song that would typically just sit on a hard drive. I’m glad I can use this mixtape concept as a home for all these little misfits now.
Teenage Feelings
so "we"
"we" were always just "you"
and what you wanted to do
but now that I'm gone
and there's no more chances
you might still think
that you know all there is to know
well...
you will never
you will never know
you'll never know the things I'll be
you'll never see the things I'll see
and you'll never know how much I hate you
time always proves
just who is who
and I watched as time
did a number on you
now that we're through
I see straight through you
you never learned
'cause you thought you always knew
you will never
you will never know
you'll never know the things I'll be
you'll never see the things I'll see
and you'll never know how much I hate you
Latin For Joy
This is a track that I made in an apartment in downtown Los Angeles. It started by sampling my partner tuning his strings.
The apartment was noisy. The only place quiet enough to record was in the bathroom. Normally I’d turn the mics off while he was tuning, but since we had to do takes between the buses going by, I left them on the entire time.
I liked the way all the string noises sounded while he was getting ready, so I cut them out and started performing them with a midi keyboard. That led to sampling some trash cans and random noises for drums, and the rest just kind of spiraled from there.
The title came from my misunderstanding of what a word meant, and trying to look up its etymology. I saw the phrase “Latin For Joy” in a search and liked the ring of it.
See You On The Other Side
This song was another synth experiment that turned into a track.
I was trying to understand how a plugin demo worked, and I couldn’t get it to behave how I wanted it to. But I liked how warped it all was, so I just edited the results into something more coherent. That led me to butchering my vocals through various vocoders, and then just stitching together a loose idea of a structure.
I’ve also always liked the idea of depressing dance music, so the final section is a snippet of that idea. I still don’t understand why that idea appeals to me – dancing because you’re feeling down – but it does. Maybe I’ll dig into that idea more explicitly in the future.
See You On The Other Side
I see you walking through the air
I see you dancing through the sky
well, if my feet don't leave the ground
then I'll see you on the other side
you said yourself you don't know why
the tears keep on falling from your eyes
if I don't make it there in time
then I'll see you on the other side